What You Write When You're Starting a Blog

I was helping my friend Taylor record a song tonight and it had such a spectacular theme in it that I just had to write something about it. The song just cries out to God, "Why would You use me?" No lie, that is a pretty legitimate question. Sometimes I am just astounded that God even wants anything to do with me. At my core I am awful, prone to the simple flaws of human nature and wicked down to the very thoughts at the back of my mind. Even more than that is the fact that I have got nothing of my own that is worth putting in front of God. My greatest attempts at righteousness are like foul and dirty rags in front of God's face. It doesn't help that I often prove myself not to be the brightest bulb in the box.
Every time I consider all this, I remember the disciples. A majority of the time in the New Testament, the disciples are just showing how stupid they are with some of the things they say and do and ask. If I was Jesus, I would be looking around like, "Really? Can you be this idiotic right now?" Half of what He says they absolutely do not understand, and the half they do understand they fail at applying. Peter is probably the worst out of all of them, and he ends up being the leader! But, that just brings us right back around to the awesome question, "Why would You use me?" It doesn't make sense to me sometimes. Surely there are a ton of others who are more qualified, with better attitudes and more self-control. But I think the key to all of that is the fact that God knows what we are right now, what we will be 10 years from now, and what we will be like 20 years from now. And the best part is, He loves us just as much now as He will then.
There is so much awesome stuff that God is doing in my life right now and in the area that He has placed me in. Opportunities are practically falling out of the sky for the JR Worship department and God has directed every step. Sometimes I feel completely overwhelmed by the blessing and provision of God in the use of my talents and I find myself asking, "God, why would You use me?"